Life Experience

Dive into the Eye of the Storm

A lot of what goes through a person when they experience pain or heartache is torture. We’ve all been there, we’ve all grieved for someone we love, we’ve all been hurt, it’s what makes us human.

I’ve done a lot of thinking over the last few weeks, and I’ve had a lot of time to myself to consider what direction I’m going in, and where I’ve been. I’ve been stuck, really. But I think a large part of being hurt is experiencing time standing still and it’s not necessarily a bad thing. You need time to contemplate and to heal, there’s no other way of repairing the damage.

What I’m trying to say, and what I’ve figured out, is that you have to weather the storm. You have to go through the darkness to reach the light. You have to listen to the tear-jerking break up songs and you have to go through the emotional moments. You just have to, otherwise you don’t get fixed. A lot of the time it is up to you and you alone to pick yourself up and dust yourself down. You may have a loving and strong support network, but there is only so much that your mum can do for your over the phone. Your friends and family can listen to you and love you, but ultimately it is down to you to get better.

It’s hard, I’m not saying it isn’t and I’m not even at the end of my journey yet. But I know that the next few weeks, or whatever will just make me a better person. I know it’s going to hurt, but I’m not prepared to hide from everything and bubble-wrap myself. I’m going to walk right into the eye of the storm and I’m going to come out of the other side a better person.

I should really blog more often…


Entertainment, Film, Review

Review: Zombieland

I wouldn’t say that I watched this willingly. It was more like, “Brittany, sit down, eat your fish and chips and watch this.” I was also told: “Don’t worry, it’s not scary,” because if I haven’t already made clear, which I doubt I have, I can’t handle zombie films. It’s my worst nightmare; I can’t even hack Shaun of the Dead. So when I was told that I was watching Zombieland, it’s safe to say that I was pretty nervous.

But it is a really good film. Aside from the zombies and all the blood and guts that spew all over the camera, it’s hilarious. Essentially, it’s about the last people on Earth after a virus has claimed the rest of humanity and turned them into flesh eating cannibals. Ugh it still gives me the shivers. And you know the worst part about it? The zombies don’t just groan and stumble after them, drooling for brain food – haha – oh no. They can run. As fast as humans. So even though it’s the dead-but-not-dead walk that always freaks me out more than anything, I find this scarier because this way there’s no chance of getting away from them. Ugh.

I love all the characters in this film: you have the reclusive nerd who’s somehow managed to not get eaten, the hardcore ‘let’s kill everything’ guy whose only goal in life seems to be to get his hands on a Twinky.., then there’s Emma Stone.. girl crush right there, it’s gotta be said…who’s the hot fighter chick and the nerd’s love interest and finally there’s Emma Stone… ‘s little sister who helps her with all the scams that they partake in to survive and get cars and guns and things like that. The only thing I would say about the characters is that when they first sort of meet, they end up being enemies because the girls take the guys’ car and weapons on two occasions and they’re constantly threatening each other with guns, but all of a sudden they become best friends because the nerd guy comes out with some kind of short speech that changes all their minds about each other. I don’t know, it just didn’t sit right with me.

One of the best things about the film is Bill Murray as Bill Murray in Bill Murray’s mansion. It’s a brilliant chapter in the film, I love it especially when something happens to Bill Murray because he’s dressed as a zombie and tries to scare the nerd guy. I don’t want to spoil it, but I’m sure you’re clever enough to work it out.

But anyway, towards the end of the film is also pretty awesome, the girls reach the theme park that they’ve been destined for and by lighting it all up and turning all the music on, they attract zombies from all over. It’s pretty creepy actually, seeing a fairground that’s deserted with just two people playing in it. It gets worse when the zombies show up.. I watched a lot of it through my fingers. Especially when the clown zombie popped up. Worst possible thing that could’ve happened. It’s like both my nightmares shoved into one.

It’s a pretty good film if you’re not too bothered by gore and blood and zombies. I doubt I’d watch it again because the idea of zombies that can run disturbs me too much. And the whole film made it quite clear to me, that I’d be one of the first to go in a zombie apocalypse, which gives me a lot of hope and comfort for if/when it happens….monstrosity. Ughhhhh. I didn’t like that bit.. but for someone who isn’t a wuss like me, it’s a great scene.