Life Experience

I miss…

A video showed up in my Facebook notifications from nearly four years ago, back when I was in first year at university. Even though I’m only in touch with two out of the eight or nine people in that 30 second video, I miss a lot about that year.

It was a difficult year, though, with an awful lot of wasted effort and hard work on relationships, romantic or otherwise, that turned into nothing. It was a year that taught me about people, and how to deal with different personalities, whether they clashed with mine or not. That year taught me how to love someone and how to deal with their absence and the way they crushed out relationships. It also taught me that not everyone is truthful and that people are quite capable of being hurtful without too much of a conscience to hold them back.

What I miss, however, is spending time with different people every day, not knowing who would rock up that evening or who you’d be staying up late with, sharing secrets and chatting about anything and everything. I miss the ridiculous fancy dress outfits and (in a weird way) the drama that surrounded daily life. It’s an interesting psychological challenge to try to suss people out.

I miss going to lectures and learning new things, I miss going to different people’s houses/flats for dinner and I miss going out at least twice a week to let down my hair and party with whoever I was friends with at the time.

I’m an entirely different person to who I was in first year, in 2011/12. Anybody that I knew then, you probably don’t know me now and there’s a chance that we would get on now after we’ve all changed through the last three to four years. Many times, I think about reaching out to those I lost touch with, but then remember it’s probably not worth it. This time in four years I will likely miss the peace of living with friends and the freedom of not having a proper career. Who knows where I’ll be, or even who I’ll be.

So for anybody just starting out at university in their first year, treasure it. You might find it hard, you might find your best friends, you might even find yourself, but take lots of pictures and make lots of memories. Just enjoy the feelings of knowing anyone in the world can impact on your life at this very moment.

Entertainment, Music

Wildest Dreams

Taylor Swift’s latest music video launched at the recent MTV Video Music Awards and without looking too much into the event, it was full of drama, big egos and lots of celebration. Taylor’s newest release from the 1989 album is ‘Wildest Dreams’, a song that I fell in love with as soon as I heard it. It’s sexy, sultry and full of wonderful sounds that you would associate with being in love, or in a happy place and it just screams ‘Taylor Swift’.

Set in the African plains among lots of safari animals and surrounded by a vintage camera crew, Taylor tells us the story of how she is in love with her co-star in the movie that she’s playing in. In true Swift fashion, the relationship doesn’t end well, but the message of the song is not bitter. Her idea of having wildest dreams shows us that the memory of a happy relationship / happy time is the most important thing and knowing that something is going to end soon does not mean it shouldn’t be a good time. She stresses that the memory of the relationship is what we need to keep, because not everything lasts forever.

I’ve already read some negative press about Taylor’s new video, regarding it as a step back towards her Fearless (2008) or Speak Now (2010) days when she was known for writing often bitter songs about relationships and how they turned sour. Progression is important and Taylor was indeed a much younger version of herself when these albums were released; however, I’ve always seen her as an important and mature role model. I agree that ‘Wildest Dreams’ does ring similar to her previous stuff, but why should that be a step back? Taylor’s music is Taylor’s music, she makes that very clear and even though she’s taken a massive turn and change of trend in the 1989 album, she still has her own style. I’ve read that it’s regressive for her to be in love with another man who doesn’t want her back, or even for her to wear a ‘princess style dress’ to the premier in the music video and I wholeheartedly don’t understand why we can’t have love stories anymore or wear princess dresses. It’s not a step backwards to see a woman wear a huge dress or cry over a man, over love. We see men plenty of times cry of women and over love wearing tuxes, or just shirts and jeans. It doesn’t matter.

The song itself, being soft and gentle on our ears, is relaxing and sexy. It’s message about love is modern, and encourages people to just enjoy life, even when they know something is coming to an end. It tells us not to be bitter, while also showing us beautiful images of lions and zebras. It’s an unusual location for a music video and I can’t say I ever expected it, but it works and it’s so pretty to look at. Watching it for the first time did confuse me a little when the location switched instantly from the African backdrop to a simple scenery board behind the two actors, and then all of a sudden there’s a premier, but after watching it a second time it made more sense to me. The concoction for a music video never requires a simple and obvious storyline now, does it?

After she realises in the premier that their relationship is definitely over and done with when she sees him linked arms with another lady, she runs away and gets straight into her chauffeur driven car to (I assume) go home and start over. What we see is her man (played by Clint Eastwood’s son) running out of the premier after her, but stops in the middle of the road when he sees that she is gone. It tells us that he apparently didn’t want her to leave and that he too enjoyed their relationship. To me, it says that he will remember her in his wildest dreams because you don’t run out of a premier when you don’t care about said person.

I disagree with what people have said about this video being a step back. I think it’s a big step forward in that Taylor clearly accepts who she is (she hasn’t been afraid to show that lately) and she knows her own style and she knows it well. She’s one of the most talented women in this day and age and I can only hope she never stops. As she has so famously said, haters gonna hate.

Life Experience, University


Since mentioning that I was thinking about doing some vlogs, I’ve been trying out all my technologies (all three of them) to see what works best and as of today I’ve recorded a couple of them. But, that’s not what this post is about. I settled on my Sony Handycam, so I looked on the hard drive to see what’s on it, what the last thing was that I filmed. This is where it gets…odd. Well, not for you, of course, only for me because you don’t know these people. When you’re a human, which I’m pretty certain most of you are, you make friends who you get very close to, very quickly. And then, all of a sudden, they’re out of your life. Just like that, and you’re looking round like what the hell just happened?

Ace Nao Friends :D
Ace Nao Friends 😀

Anyway, I found a video with two people in it that I was very close to. Like, ridiculously close. Embarrassingly. And I did get so embarrassed. Just remembering that these people that I used to associate with all the freakin’ time did actually exist, even though they don’t to me any more. It’s just crazy how relationships with people change in the space of, what? A week. I just can’t comprehend that I have a completely different circle of friends – a stronger and bigger one at that – compared to this time last year. Well, maybe not actually. The whole kerfuffle dragged out for soooo long, it all started like last January? I think. I dunno, I forget. On purpose.

It just blew my mind that this was a life I used to have with these people not even that long ago. My mind is just gone. It’s baffling. I feel like a completely different person. I guess that shows that you’re moulded by your friends and the people that you’re around. Just me?

The end of the story, anyway, is that I pressed delete.

Entertainment, Film, World

On this Journey…

…to the Past

You must have seen Anastasia. If not, then shame on you! It’s gotta be said that it’s one of my favourite films ever and ranks highest in my favourite childhood films and then in animated films. I just love it. And I recently downloaded the songs onto my iPod, so whenever they come on I get this warm little feeling inside that takes me right back to when I was about ten, sitting with my Anastasia and Dimitri dolls, singing along to the songs with my sister. It gets me right in the heart, tugging at the strings and every now and then making me well up slightly.

A good kids film has got to have amazing songs. And Anastasia is just one of many that I love singing along to. Thumbelina is also one of these, made by the same person actually. It’s just beautiful! In both films, the animation is amazing and the music is so lovely. Let me be your wiiiiings. I mean, how sweet is that?! Sing that to me and I’m yours, quite frankly.

But it’s not just these relatively girly films, oh no! You’ve heard of The Road to El Dorado, right? Please? It’s about these two con-men who end up on a ship to El Dorado, the city made of gold. So, as you can imagine, they want to take it all for themselves. It is hilarious, beautifully animated by Dreamworks and the music is just awesome, by the one and only Elton John.

And you may have noticed that none of these are Disney films. You’d be right, because as much as I love Disney films with all the nice princesses and everything, I just think there’s something special-er about these kinds of films. Obviously there are others, such as another Dreamworks production, The Prince of Egypt, but these just hold a special place in my heart. I suppose I also ought to mention The Swan Princess, which is a sweet film, full of love, songs and love songs. Perhaps one of the most famous and heart-wrenching lines: “What else is there?” It’s like nooooo, Derek! You silly handsome fool! Princess Odette certainly is a modern woman.

Finally, not to forget the ones that not many people have actually heard of. The Princess and the Pea; this one I found on Sky Movies and I loved it for its sheer cheese! For one thing, the prince is called Rollo which as a name makes me smile because it’s so lovely and for another thing, Rollo manages to crash through a solid iron fence with no injuries, a scene that makes me laugh so much beyond belief. And then there’s a version of Snow White and the Seven Dwarves. This was a video cassette that my Nana had at her house and I used to watch it all the time, mainly because I loved the dress that Snow White wore and how it was animated. Oh the simple pleasures of children, ey?

It took me an absolute age to find both these films, I thought they’d disappeared into a great vacuum of filmic history!