Misc., Writing

What it’s like having many things to write…

It is wearing a ball gown while wading through the thickest waist-high mud for miles and miles

Needing to light a hundred feet tall candle with one little match and no ladder

A thousand bees inside a small, metal box with one coin-sized hole

Seeing the finish line before the starting gun goes off

Trying a particular lipstick and it changing into another shade by midday

Sticky notes that keep falling off the wall and disappearing between the floorboards

Your dad’s heavy denim jacket that you will never grow into

Turning the volume up as high as it will go and still straining to hear the music

Eating until you are full and still feeling like you are starving

Waiting for the knock on the door when you’re sitting in a meadow

It is reaching the other side of the bridge before you have set one foot on it to cross.

I always want to write, every minute of every day, and I always have ideas in my head. Ideas that might be big, and they might last for no longer than two seconds. They’re all still there, and they’re all very loud and blinding.

When they are small, it’s hard to justify the effort to put them onto paper.

And when they are big stories that are bouncing around in my head, that are so complicated, I would need to sit in silence for a week to even grasp them with both hands.

Sometimes there is no motivation to write anything, fictional or otherwise. Sometimes this site goes neglected and unloved for weeks at a time. And sometimes I can’t stop. Sometimes it’s unhealthy when I stay awake until the small hours, scribbling by lamplight.

All to often, the desire to write plagues me but my body refuses. Together, we make the decision not to pick up the pen and notebook. We can’t even use an app on the tablet. But the stories are there. The characters are screaming at me inside my head to let them out, but I can’t always release them.

I have never finished a project. Starting to write so young meant that my language was soft and poor. Looking at it now makes me cringe and I could never submit that anywhere, so it is added to the pile. I’m sure that pile is taller than me by now.

There is a colourful rush that comes with writing and a relief, as though eliminating a headache and making room in my head. I’ll never stop, no matter who comes along and degrades my work, because I write for me and no one else.

 

 

 

 

Art, Misc.

Hobbies

When you have a lot of hobbies, you find yourself more bored than anyone who has no hobbies. I have many – I like to write fiction, blog, sew, draw, watch films, listen to music and more – and when I have a day to myself with no plans, I find it impossible to choose something to do and then an hour late run out of motivation to even do anything, resulting in what feels like a wasted day. I’ve been staring at WordPress for the last thirty minutes, watching Pointless on a random digital channel and feeling like I should be doing something more with my life. I should be at work right now in a Mon-Fri 9-5 job but I’m not. I’m part time and at first I loved it, but as it turns out, I’m incredibly bored.

I’ve done a lot of drawing recently, and as you know, I’ve got a real thing for Disney Princesses. They’ve always fascinated me and in this last week I’ve been drawing them and colouring with some nice shiny new Crayola pencils (which are wonderful!). Have a look at these and be nice..

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Life Experience

Oh, I See You There!

Hi. My name is Brittany and I am possibly one of the worst bloggers out there. I enjoy writing, I do, I just forget that this is here. And it makes zero sense lately seeing as I am recently unemployed and therefore have nothing to do in life and ergo seem consistently bored every hour of every day. Sam’s all like, you need to find a hobby, something interesting to do instead of playing the Sims all day, but LET’S BE HONEST HERE, FRIEND, the Sims is one damn beautiful game to play. Anyway, other suggestions have been to watch Netflix all day. And that is how I wasted 32 hours of my life. Or rather, I would have done if I’d actually taken up the activity. Instead, I’ve enjoyed watching SupernaturalEducating Essex and other spritely films and odd episodes of random TV shows.

Okay. As per, my post is drifting into something where the reader would be considering their life choices and be doubting the name they’ve given to their child (hopefully not) OH MY GOD what is wrong with me. I’ll try to get somewhere with this blog, I changed it all up, added new pictures and made it all pretty and then just neglected it like the ridiculous human that I seem to have turned into.

I’ll keep updating you on my boredom antics. For now, I’m going crazy because the washing machine is making the loudest noise known to man. Dear God.

Bye.

Entertainment

12th July 2012

My sister’s packing to go to Austria with her school tomorrow. She goes for a week. I don’t know if I can take the boredom of being on my own for a week…we’ve spent most days together for the past few weeks because she’s finished GCSEs and I’ve finished first year of uni. Should I have got a job? Yes. Shush. I’m being a bum. Anyway, I’ve not been that busy this past week, the most exciting thing I’ve done was go see the Loserville Musical, with Gareth Gates in it which was AMAZING by the way 😉
I’m trying to tell you that I’m bored and that I’m writing a post merely for something to do. Entertaining? I think so 😉

Entertainment, Film, Life Experience, University, World

The Joys of Summer

Oh here she goes, breaking into some kind of poetic song. No. Haha I’ll jump straight to it instead of trying to write something clever that subtly and metaphorically leads up to the point: I’m bored. Now that uni’s finished and everyone’s gradually going home, I’m finding that I’m bored out of my mind. Having said this, I’ve spent the past week or thereabouts with Carter, so I haven’t been that bored I suppose. It’s just now that I’m by myself and looking at the next couple of months like woooah, this doesn’t look too exciting does it? Now, you’re probably thinking: Get a job, you lazy git, and yes, I’ve been told this countless times and I will, I promise! But, I’m still deciding when to go home and this will determine whether I get a job in York, or in Castleford or even Leeds (shudder).

So, yes, just saying to any budding first years out there: uni isn’t all it’s cracked up to be when you’re not actually there. I’ve loved it up until this point, mainly because a lot of my friends have buggered off home and I’m one of the only ones left at Limes Court, contemplating whether I should venture out to do my washing or sit inside my room all day and watch films and eat chocolate. Come to think of it, I’m very in the mood for Robin Hood: Men in Tights. One of the best by far. Enjoy 😉

 

P.S OMG it’s June?!

Music, University

29th April, 2012

Just so you all know, I got a brand spanking new phone on Friday and boiii is it  beautiful. Evidently, it also changes me into some kind of posh chav.. Hmm. Anyway, there’s no real moral to this post at all, so if that’s what you’re looking for, leave now. Why you’re on this blog then, I’ve no idea. But anyway, it’s been a pretty boring weekend. I haven’t done anything apart from drain my phone’s battery because I love playing all the games and stuff on it. And somehow I’ve managed to use half of my internet allowance in two days. I’m terrible with money and budgeting and things like that. But yeah, it’s not been a great weekend. Just to get all emo on your arse, I’ve felt a teensy bit down, but it’s nothing that can’t be solved easily. 🙂 So I’ll stop whining now and inform you that I’ve been listening to the sweet, sultry sound of Buble’s voice…

Have a good Monday tomorrow and let the rest of the week follow smoothly 🙂

Entertainment, Film, Review

Review: The Social Network

Call me controversial, but I really didn’t take to this film at all. I was warned that it was a bit of a slow starter which is often a curse for me when someone says that at the beginning of a film because it taints my perception of it for the whole running time. And that’s exactly what I thought: it’s slow. Now, I know that many, many people adore this film and it got loads of awards and praise and things like that, but I genuinely don’t get what all the fuss was about. I think one of the worst things was how fast Jesse Eisenberg – who played Mark Zuckerberg, the ‘creator’ of Facebook – speaks throughout the film! I mean, come on, maybe Zuckerberg does actually speak like that, but I couldn’t understand a word he was saying. And don’t tell me I should’ve put the subtitles on…I think it appropriate to make the world aware that I’m not a fan of subtitles unless it’s a foreign film – I mean why would you want to read what they’re saying if you can hear it perfectly well?

Anyway, I digress. I’m sorry but I just thought that this film wasn’t that interesting. Maybe it’s just my personal opinion about Facebook as a whole. You see, I love it for talking to my friends both in England and in other countries, don’t get me wrong, it’s amazing for that, but I hate the way that people hang their lives on it. It might seem petty, but take The Jeremy Kyle Show or any other personal dramas show that’s broadcast on daytime TV; the people that appear on there seem to base all their relationship issues on Facebook. ‘He messaged me this, she poked me and it was clearly bitchy, he didn’t change his relationship status to ‘in a relationship’…’ blah, blah, blah. Shut up! (Although I do love a bit of Jeremy Kyle, I’m sure you all know).

I see I’ve diverted from reviewing the film again. Right. It’s okay, I suppose. It’s just…I dunno, I guess I’d have to be in the right mood to watch it and to be fair…I was at a sleepover at the time, so I wasn’t concentrating that much. But, maybe if it had been a lot more interesting, I wouldn’t have averted my eyes from the screen so much. I suppose my only issue with this film is: what’s the big deal about Facebook. I totally get why people rave about this film, it’s alright, but this is my honest and very personal opinion. I just didn’t like it. Sorry.

Give it a watch though, just to say you have, or you’re not allowed an opinion on it, as are the rules. :)

4 out of 10.

Entertainment, Life Experience

Inspiration

So I’m sitting here in my wonderfully bland uni room on a Sunday afternoon thinking: there is crap all to do in this Godforsaken establishment. And then the filmmaker in me pops out and says, “Let’s make a video!” Ooh, great idea.. about what though? It’s then that the same idea that hits me about four times a month pops into my head to create a tiny film using stop-animation, something sweet and cute that relates to my life. To cut an incessantly long and dull story down; I drawed a pichure of me and mah daddy when i was ickle. 🙂 N’awww. This has absolutely no relevance to your life in the slightest, but I like the picture, so here it is 🙂

Life Experience

Limbo

What is this ridiculous period of time that I’m going through?! I mean come on, it’s the summer, surely I should be enjoying it?! But instead, I find myself sitting in, watching it rain, rather than shine, kinda wishing the next month away. And I’m thinking to myself: I should be cramming these next few weeks with seeing friends, spending time with family and just generally having fun because there is just not that much time left until university (yay!). But it’s so boring, there’s like nothing to do because people are busy getting ready for uni, I’m going to Germany on Thursday for 6 days, y’know, there’s just no time left to do anything. So for the moment I’m stuck in this disgraceful limbo where I can’t really do anything big because I’m going away in, what? Five days? Oh my God, five days…scared much?

I’m sure there are many other people who agree with me, especially at this age because exams have finished, and therefore there’s no homework to be done. People have acquired part time jobs, so there’s not much free time to be had with friends and university is in September, meaning that I’ve been sitting around the house doing crap all (other than the couple of times that I’ve been in Germany obviously) and I’m sick to the back teeth of it.

I think, also, being stuck in the house means that I rely on the internet more than I should and I talk to friends online on an evening. And as many people know, I’d much rather talk to someone face-to-face than on the internet, but needs must, I suppose. Anyhow, when I talk to people too often online, I usually get the wrong end of the stick and become fed up with them saying the same thing over and over and over and over again. Oh. See what I did there? Muaha.

So at the moment I’m watching this German film on TV, I doubt that any other member of the United Kingdom is also, unless they’re called Mark. Bearing that in mind, I doubt that too because it’s really quite late. So I should be in bed. It’s actually becoming apparent to me now that I should be in bed because my fingers are literally moving across this keyboard like crazy and I’m just really rubbish off to you. So, apologies for the complete and utter irrelevance of this last paragraph.

I hope your summers are going very well, I know mine will kick off sooner or later.

Ta-rah,

Brittany 🙂